This post is the result of my latest fit of introspection. For the past few days I have been introspecting about my life, its purpose and the expectations I had with it.
When I passed out of college, I had a rather Utopian view of the world and how it works. Irrespective of the horror stories which were narrated to me by my senior about how the life is all about work, how everyone has lost touch, how nothing is the same, I forced myself to believe that things would be better this way. I won’t let myself succumb to the pressure of life and rather the ‘corporate way of life’.
Now here I am, 9 months since I left Room 110, Ameer Ali Halls, National Law University, NH 64, Mandore, Jodhpur – 342004, introspecting and ruminating about everything I forced myself to believe while leaving college. Have I been successful in not succumbing to the pressures of the ‘corporate world’. Maybe for the first time ever, I would admit…NO I AM NOT SUCCESSFUL!! I miserably failed….. !!!
Maybe more than everyone else. The life seems to be revolving around office, work, appraisals, memos and mails. Life is routine, the excitements in life have reduced to exploring a new expensive restaurant or trying a new scotch.
I ended up realizing that I don’t want these excitements. For me exploring a new way to eat raw Maggi and tasting the local made ‘AC Sexy’ was much more pleasurable than what I am doing right now.
Those friends with whom I used to spend the major part of my day, now weeks go by and we don’t even get to talk once.
NO, I am not against working, I enjoy what I do. What I am against or rather what I fail to understand is, why do we end up sacrificing what we once cherished the most? Why can’t we live the same way and yet work the way we are doing right now?
I don’t have an answer to these questions!!! Do you??????